Let Them Submerge Gently

So I am getting baptized October 11th. I was very sure about it the day I announced it to the church. But right now I'm not sure that the people who are doing it to me, are the right ones. I am hesitant for that one day, and I am suppose to answer a question about "why did you decide..." in front of everyone. I have so much to say although I am not comfortable about it. I could just do it myself you know...
The first time I told Eugene, he seemed hesitant about it, he paused, then said "oh really? good for you amber.." and I knew he didn't agree with me about it, but that's okay. Its for me and my relationship with God.
Sydney was like "You've never been baptized?! I'm coming!" haha that shocked me and made me happy that she wants to come... she is probably going to do lights anyway lol funny how things work.

I made a promise to myself that I will pull through with this, but for some reason, a part of me says to wait and find the right person to do it.
In a way, Jeff isn't doing it, God is. If that makes sense..

I trust God.
I trust myself in Him.