Wait it out.

Pain on pain on play, repeating.
With the backup makeshift life in waiting.

All-in-one, only one street-level miracle
I'll be an out-in-out, born-again from none more cynical.

How do you believe something that you don't have any idea what it is. In the back of my head there is faith and the heart/gut feeling.. I need to believe in myself
People say that miracles exist but I have never experienced one before. So I really don't know what a miracle is or love. All the times I've said 'I love you' I meant it.. but its not the true love that completes everything. But when it comes to someone I love dearly, I can't say it, it seems silly to me. I just can't believe anything anymore, there isn't enough ground to step on. Fear of losing everything once I hand it out.
Then again, my mind is open to anything, I'm not afraid of the future or change! Change is exciting and you never know what happens next, its a thrill. I suppose I depend on the future so much that I don't worry about anything at the moment. I think, oh we will do this differently and then it will happen. I feel like a child playing a matching game; trying to find my other half.

We'll see how long it takes to find that other half.
The little child thought she found it, but she was too insecure to take notice.
And she lost it in the pile of cards.

I guess you could say she was in awe so much of that person, she was too scared to say or do anything. the only thing she knew how to do, was run away. But I did, and I regret it
I never regret anything.


"This is only who I am today.
And there's so much more to see."