Its sick for what people think and do. but who can help it?
if it wasn't for these things life wouldn't be challenging. and that wouldn't make it worth living.
you have to live for something. and I do. but I'm not sure exactly why, but I know in my heart there is something.

there are somethings that deserve more than they have. and that happens to people where ever you go.
but its up to them to make their life right for them. even though its not right for your friend or a passer-by.


"all the single ladies, all the singles lades, now put your hands up.. oh ohh oh oh whoa ah oh ohhh oh... if you liked then your shoulda put a ring..."
haha i'm listening to that right now XD it ALWAYS puts me in a good mood. lol

I would love to share this with christie, or bonnie or even anyone else I really care for... its just I understand christie but I just can't work with it without getting frustrated.
and bonnie... I really wish we were closer, but who can help it. there is never a good time to talk about this.
like if I'm hanging out with her, including you and others (in the freezing cold XD i love that) i never want to talk about these things with people because I'm afraid it will depress everyone or confuse them.. or I don't know.
maybe I am making assumptions I shouldn't be doing or even they are totally wrong.

who knows.