Half Awake

it all seems really easy when you hear it from others.. and if I give the same advice to someone else, I just never can say it to myself.

I know what is right and what's wrong in my mind.
But my actions don't see that.
I tend to treat friendships like real relationships. I think about who that person is and how they act... and I think 'hey I would love to be good friends with them they seem like the person who would understand.'

but I just put too much effort into it, or at least care and love.
I do it too frequently to people who never really care as much and not more to others that do need it.
I talk about the same things over and over again.
And it goes one by one. of course its going to do that, its time.

nothing will happen when you wish it.

and I know it might sound like I don't know what is going on in my mind or around me.
but I really do, its just my mind goes on and on about other things I lose track on things in my mind; instead of keeping track on reality.
I dream a lot about many things. its always good to dream but sometimes it makes it worse...
like not understanding why in the real world its so hard to get them to understand when in your mind, the way you see it, it is so simple.

I am stronger than I put out to be.