Sleeping is hard.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iBhH1x543tM

My eyes are straining right now looking into this screen, but I don't care.
I'm ready to start the day. but I am NOT looking forward to play pro... I can not stand doing the plot.
and I am very picky, I even have to change desks XD
oh and that plagiarizing? HA! that made me laugh
like I do that a lot?! I was just lazy as hell..
I think I have either a 78 or a 72 in that class, but I don't really give a shit because one, I already have my three performing arts classes, and two I changed my cluster so HA.
I'm getting tired of the drama club, I really am. I want something new.
and this whole lighting thing, yeah I love doing it, but I don't know if I am ready to do it all myself next year. I am the only one who is left that knows as much as mike and emily. its a scary thought as of right now... but garth always tells me "its your job if you want it to be" and I always say yes.
I feel guilty if I don't do it. I really do. Its a feeling of pressure that I have to do it.

and i am not a big fan for big egos. dear lord are there some big egos here.
john and I were talking about it and we are both on the same page.
and I am really happy that I'm getting close to him again because I've always loved him. he's a great friend.
we have never been as close as we used to though.. ever since that most ridiculous fight ever. I was such an asshole to get annoyed with him for doing that movie. GOD!
but I think that's changing now. we're talking and things are going really well.
speaking of that! today we are going to start writing the new script.

I have a few ideas.. my favorite would be that the camera is in the victims face, who is hiding from the killer, there is a flood light in the background but all you see then is a silhouette of a large person (the killer) and the victim is very scared (well duh XD)
aand so the victim hears something, turns around and see's her killer. everything goes black and all you can here is a scream and struggling.

I don't know, it might not sound as cool as it looks in my head lol
but I'll be sure to give that a try. And an interesting thing is that I really like dying in acting. not sure why though lol
we have this deal where everyone gets to choose their death and so I wanted to sacrifice myself for a friend and then get stabbed. the killer goes away and then I die with my friend.

so dramatic XDDD


so about this sleeping, I'm really hungry but I have an upset stomach so I don't want to eat >_<
and I've tried listening to music, laying on my floor, opening the window, which sounds pretty with the birds waking up, but i just have so much on my mind at the moment.

I love this moment. Right now. How I feel and how I look at things in life.
I am also very happy. For the way things are going. I am going to the prom with garett ^____^
i finally got to talk to bon, which got soo much off my chest. Its always great talking to her. she listens so well, and I really appreciate that.
well maybe I didn't really talk to her. but I think you get the point ;D

anyway, what else is there... oh! ally's birthday is sunday! WOOT
you will not have redbull with vodka.you will not have redbull with vodka.you will not have redbull with vodka.

lol its soo good though.
I'm just kidding, there is no way that's happening. yeah i'll be at the house (can't wait to see drew, zac and dillon) and hopefully sur lip is coming!
and can't forget that my parents will be there yay. XD
hopefully that night will be fun.


its about 6.30am at the moment... aand i'm still not tired. HA! i could use that monster right about now.

Today feels good. I just know it.
Good morning to the new day.


<3