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PROM DRESS^^^
its in the UK so that is going to be interesting purchase.

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Many people don't know it, but I am shy as hell.
I really have to go to the bathroom... h/o


mkay. where was I?
oh yes!

so I'm really glad I've been able to help others. I sort of felt that I was too caught up in myself; so I couldn't pay attention to others.
I felt really bad.. but things have changed. I am a lot stronger and I think before I act; a LOT, especially on a certain subject... sigh
When I hear or see that friends go to others, I understand. I wasn't there when they needed me. Or at least that's how I feel.
I am a very different person than I was last year. And I know it.
I'm not as self-conscious or doubtful
The paranoia is getting better >_< This doesn't mean I'm perfect... not even close. Yeah I can be strong and I can be whatever I want to be, but I still have my moments. Sometimes I just want to lay down and have someone hold me. I feel really safe when people do that. I used to be attached to that feeling. but I know that I can take care of myself. But when it comes around; hey, we are all humans.

Chopin's Raindrops Prelude is amazing! ahhh I slept to it last night and I haven't dreamed like that in days. that still didn't help my writing block XD All I got was;

Life isn't over yet.
How far can you see
into the road ahead?
Let us go together
And face our fears.

What used to be so dark,
Turned a light on inside me.
Now I can see you perfectly

yay. so yeah not much, but that's okay. you know I've realized that all the things i have been writing include me and someone else.. don't know why, but its just how I've been thinking lately? idk

Speaking at the beginning, how I'm shy, it gets annoying sometimes. Like I want to do something so badly that I am to hesitant to do it; I lose my chance. And then I regret this and that, then more about what I could have done rather than what i can do now. Good thing is, I haven't been acting like that lately. I've just pretty much gone for it.
There is one person though.. that I get super shy around
I feel bad because it might come off wrong that I'm ignoring them, but I'm really not. I just don't know what to do. I get too shy to do anything. like if I do something wro-

BAHHH!



lol I'm going to stop thinking, here I come RockBand2 =DD